Yeah, I hear ya, but that's just the nature of the beast. We all accepted that risk ("you're mission, should you choose to accept it"LOL), and it REALLY hurts when you put in all that time and preparation only to blow it on a one-shot test, but you CAN request list reinstatement after a year. But as far as leaving a good, steady job for this, it ends up being worth it when you pass. And you WILL pass, THAT'S how you increase your chance of success, by SEEING yourself nailing that thang.